A letter to anxiety

Dear Anxiety

I hope my words finds you well, or at least, in a state where you're open to hearing from me. 

You and I have had quite a relationship, haven't we?

I first, want to acknowledge your presence in my life.

We've danced together in moments of uncertainty, and you've shown up uninvited more times than I can count.

I understand that you're not here to harm me but in your very own way, protect me. It hasn't always been easy for me to see you that way.

I for long, perceived you as my enemy and if i'm really honest I'm still guilty of that one at times. 

I know you mean well and while your intentions may be noble, your methods can sometimes be overwhelming and crossing a few lines.

Starting with my peace.

I appreciate your concern. I appreciate that you want to keep me safe in a world that can sometimes feel dangerous and unpredictable. You have proven to take your role as a guardian very seriously and i thank you for that.

However, 

not everything you perceive as a threat is one.

I want to gently remind you that sometimes, what you invision as a menace is simply a mere piece of your imagination. 

I simply can no longer tolerate you taking my peace away. 

I choose now, in full respect of your intentions, to take back the control of my life.

With knowledge and understanding i have come to see you as a friend, so if you don't mind, I would like us to work together, as a team. 

I'm aware you may always be a part of my life so I'd like to propose a deal. 

I promise to listen to your warnings, to listen to your signs. I promise you to choose mindfully what i feed my body and my thoughts with. I will choose my surrondings carefully and show up for myself the best i can.

However, I need you to trust me to discern real dangers from mere threats. 

There is no need to take me to the extreme. For real.
You know how much it has impacted me in the past, so i'm asking you to never take me down that road again. 

I will simply not allow that to happen.

I'm certain that with a bit of play and patience, we can find a way to coexist peacefully. Together, hand in hand, we can break free from those old -bit extreme- habits. 

Let's rather lean on each other in times of need 

and give each other the space to breathe, 

🫴 Shall we ?

I pray that my words land well and as from now, you will respect my our deal. 

I Thank you for your protection and pure intentions.

I raise my pen to the new path that awaits for us and celebrate the growth we've made together.

Much love, 

Aurélie